Two days.
That's all that I have left between me and the deadline for my portfolio. I'm scared. Whenever I come close to an important, art related deadline I tend to start back-peddling because I'm scared of being judged. This is something so important, I'm scared to have failed.
Overall, I am unhappy with my portfolio. There are some strong pieces, and lots of pieces that I personally am unhappy with. Looking back, I wish that I didn't force myself to do things I didn't want to, because now some of my pieces are lacking, and others look better because they;re things that I actually enjoy doing.
I'm really not sure how I'll take rejection, if that happens. Of course, I'll reapply next year, and stay here for a year and work (which would actually be a better idea), but staying in Kelowna would suck my love for art dry. There's no art culture here. I felt so inspired in Vancouver, yet here I have to push myself to do what I love.
I'm terrified of what the next few weeks will bring.
it's all unfolding perfectly. If your work was ready for the world you wouldn't need art school. It's the potential, presentation and drive you're being judged on not skill and trust me, you have boat loads of natural talent. More than most, I have a feeling your portfolio will sail through. Kelowna can be stifling but I don't think you will ever not be an artist, wherever you are, girl..... you're one of the rare ones. I believe in you!
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