Sunday, 6 March 2011

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Sorry for the lack of update for the past few days. Even though I know that no one really reads this, I can't let myself stop posting. Otherwise I'll get back into my non-existant routine of... Not doing anything.


Money. It's a pretty powerful thing. And right now, I have none. It's a frustrating situation to be in. I really want to get a job, but all of the work I do on my portfolio along with my school work makes it near impossible to really get a job and make money. And, because I'm working on my portfolio, I can't take on any commissions. I can't think of anything else I could do besides try to sell my crap that really isn't worth much or interesting to anyone.


I've also been really unmotivated. After finishing my big piece, I'm just so tired and I really don't want to touch anything art-related. I just want to relax, sleep, an hang out with my friends. I kind of miss being a normal teenager. Because of how much work I have, it's hard to maintain everything. There's this picture that exists on the internet that most modern-day students know about. It's a triangle with one thing in each corner: Sleep, Good Grades, and Social Life are the choices. Above the triangle it says, 'You can only pick two.' For me, sadly, I've picked Good Grades and Sleep. However, there's this invisible, nagging choice that many don't have to deal with: a Portfolio. It's extremely time consuming, exhausting, and drains you of almost every creative and non-creative juices from your body. The physical Portfolio itself just sits there passively in the corner, silently saying, "I should be filled with amazing creations... Why haven't you created anything?" I feel guilty because of my laziness. I know that my wisdom teeth set me back a little, but now I just want to relax and sleep and not worry about my portfolio. It's a bad cycle I've gotten myself into, and now I regret doing so. This week I need to get my Art Nouveau piece done. No more hesitation. It's not exactly a hard thing to do, and I am really excited to work with gouache and watercolour and acrylic ink, but I'm just a slow starter. 


I also need to take pictures of all of my pieces I have currently done and post them to my deviantart. Once done, I'll connect my deviantart to here for all to see. 


Anyways, I'm going to think about what I should do this week, and then I'll post a list to remind myself. :)

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